Miss Paper Bell

I foolishly thought my decision to have a proper meal instead of starving was commendable, but you had to fucking comment,"That's a lot of food."

Sadly, that didn't kill my appetite, no matter how slowly I tried to eat, no matter how small my bites were. I feel fucking guilty.

They didn't manage to come up, and I'm left with a strained throat and a spinning head. To make matters worse, Anne walked in just as I got out of the cubicle. Tried to pass it off as a terrible stomachache. Couldn't look at her in the eye. I'm sure that she suspected because she asked and she kept shooting me the judgemental look.

It's my own choice. This is one of my ways of being happy. I thought perhaps I can binge a little today because it's the time of the month, but apparently eating normal portions is frowned upon.

Putting on weight is not acceptable.
Not eating is preposterous.
Eating normally is unpardonable.

What the fuck am I to do?

Starve on, Faith, starve on. This is really the best resort.

Revolutionary Road

2010-07-29T10:32:00.000+08:00

A cage. To stay behind bars until use and old age accept them and all chance of valor has gone beyond recall or desire.

I have to leave.

Must

2010-07-28T19:54:00.001+08:00

stop eating.

Delicious Milk

2010-07-25T18:14:00.003+08:00

Shosanna. Inspiration.

Somewhere over the rainbow

2010-07-22T20:55:00.003+08:00

I am damn fucking tired of this life.

Throw in the towel. Head to that land that I heard of, once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow

Why then, oh, why can't I

If happy little bluebirds fly

Beyond the rainbow

Why, oh, why can't I

I am sorry that I am so fucking pathetic. Wish I was stronger.

When the slightest utterance can destroy the spellbound moment

2010-07-21T13:51:00.003+08:00

Kan jag få skänka dig min tid

Och vill du sen dela den med mig

I säkert förvar nu mitt hjärta du har

Och varje stund jag är med dig

Så vet jag att min dröm har blivit sann

Ett liv för mig är ett liv med dig

Then I shall hide behind the protection of another linguistic.

Blue Devils

2010-07-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

What if they've become my friends. My constant companions.

Doleful.

Because I forgot how to...

Perché ho dimenticato come sorridere...

One day

2010-07-18T15:40:00.003+08:00

You will let me go right?

When we finally arrive in New York, you will leave in peace right?

What if I'm too accustomed to you?

What if I don't know how to live without your abuse?

What if you are really an indispensable part of me?

What if, in actual fact, I don't want you to leave because I need you to remind me what is real in this life.

fede, mi lascerete andare a destra?

Drilling

2010-07-12T20:10:00.002+08:00

Your words. Fatal. Lethal.

Your indifference. Cold. Sharp.

Your love language. Poison to my soul.

You said, "Matthew, don't talk like that. If you don't know how to talk, just keep quiet and don't talk."

Fuck you. He is only 9 years old. He is autistic. You are his fucking mother, fucking teach him you bitch.

You said, "Matthew, don't come here. Don't come and disturb me. Go away."

You know what, Matthew says stuff like, "Go away. I don't want you." to himself. Where is your fucking conscience. You screwed me up. Please don't touch Matthew. What can't the both of you just let us go.

Unknowingly, as I push you out of my heart, I am cutting Matthew off too.

Sorry Matthew. I will do every thing I can to love you in a way that they never did and never will.

She said, "Why don't you eat biscuits? Just now, I also cook maggi mee for Matthew to eat."

Fine. You don't care about me. Fine. But how can you even conceive the thought that feeding your child instant noodle is perfectly normal and sufficient. You told us your mother always prepared food for you, and how you never needed to learn to cook. What went wrong? Why can't you love us the way your foster mother loved you?

Are you the epiphany of selfishness?

You think its fine for your daughter to eat biscuits. Your daughter's friends are more concerned about her freaking diet than you.

You know what kills me. All of this. You see no wrong. At all.

This is hilarious.

GTFO. STFU.

2010-07-11T12:30:00.001+08:00

Get.

The.

Fuck.

Out.

Pardon my French.

Shut.

The.

Fuck.

Up.

Faith Huang

2010-07-09T17:32:00.003+08:00

That was pathetic. Stop it. You said you will never be someone like that. Snap back. Compose yourself, gather your pride.

Can't believe that I've become like that. So pathetic. Utterly disgusted.

Storm

2010-07-09T16:47:00.001+08:00

how long have I been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head

if I could just see you everything will be alright
if I'd see you the storminess will turn to light
and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under
and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

if I could just see you everything will be alright
if I see you the storminess will turn to light
and I will walk on water and you will catch me
if I fall and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright

and I will walk on water
you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
everything's alright

_______________________________

Perfect only in our imperfections.

Angels and Demons

2010-07-03T11:13:00.002+08:00

When you stop loving yourself, you stop fighting the demons inside.

You wonder what is the point of fighting.

Let them come. Let them engulf.

Angels are suppose to protect us. And they know how to do it. Demons were once angels? Fallen angels. Perhaps that's how they know how to get to us.

Am I the only one who has a cosmic battle raging inside? I hope not.

Now, angels, if you guys can appear more often, the odds would be different. Don't keep me waiting for too long. I might just stop fighting.

You

2010-07-02T10:02:00.002+08:00

quit your job again.

For some stupid its-about-being-righteous reason.

You know what is true righteousness?

That you be merciful to us and freaking get a job, stick to it for more than a month and feed your family. Clown.

Thank you very much. Whenever you do something puerile (which is actually on a daily basis) and moronic, I find myself losing my appetite. Thanks. You are helping me to save money.

Your stupidity churns a storm in me. Why can't you just let me go?

Strengthless

2010-06-26T12:49:00.002+08:00

Unlike the bible heroes, I do not have the energy nor the emotional and mental capacity to write psalms of your faithfulness, love and grace.

I no longer have the strength to analyse what is wrong and try to rectify things.

It really takes everything of me to say.

Don't forsake me.

True Colors

2010-06-25T14:12:00.002+08:00

Don't scold me just because I didn't finish my food.

Did I delibrately stop myself from eating? Do you know how sucky it feels to want to eat but have no appetite?

The stress and the emotional baggage is taking a toil on my body. I feel full very very easily.

Don't give me that judgemental look. You don't know my burdens, my pains. Your life is a breeze and you admit it.

I know I ought to be eating more. I want to eat more. But taking a few bites makes me uncomfortably full.

You can never imagine the turmoil I go through, to the extent that my body is punishing me.

Fire

2010-06-24T14:05:00.001+08:00

Take life, its pains and its pleasure.

No insurance, no assurance, no bond. Not my working style. So why did I dive into it?

Faith, it's difficult to figure you out.

It has come to this

2010-06-21T10:00:00.002+08:00

I've attempted to leave home many times, but I always stayed. Wanting to believe that there is still a least a shred of love in their hearts for me.

However, yesterday, both of you broke my heart, destroyed me as a person. You left me wretched. You abandoned me. You pushed me away.

I can't look at you. I can't hear your voices. Haunting.

What have I done to you that you must be so cruel to me. Is it my birth? Is it my mere existence?

Now I'm leaving, I'm giving you back your life. When I am stronger, I will come and take Matthew with me.

Feeble Hands and Knees

2010-06-18T11:09:00.001+08:00

Hebrews 12:12-17

Thank you for not listening to my ridiculous requests, thanks for keeping me in line.

Leave

2010-06-09T21:27:00.001+08:00

My old friend is back. I keep trying to remind myself of all the promises but nothing is getting in. He is gripping me from the inside. I cannot breathe. I cannot see. I am scared.

Explore. Dream. Discover.

2010-06-03T15:29:00.004+08:00

On May 15, Australian Jessica Watson became the youngest individual to sail non-stop and unassisted around the world. Just three days after arriving in Sydney Harbour in her pink boat, she celebrated her 17th birthday.

As Jessica told the Australian crowd on her return after 210 days at sea: "People don’t think you’re capable of these things — they don’t realise what young people, what 16-year-olds and girls are capable of. I don’t consider myself a hero. I’m an ordinary girl who believed in her dream."

And what a beautiful experience it was for her. Out alone in the ocean, she savoured sunrises and shooting stars, studied passing blue whales. Yes, there were dangers (one vicious storm tossed her boat over at least four times) but the lack of adult supervision also offered a unique freedom for a young girl; she sang at the top of her lungs unabashedly with no audience to judge her and indulged in chocolate cupcakes baked in her tiny kitchen below.

http://blogs.straitstimes.com/2010/5/31/to-be-young-and-free

What an experience. Makes me wanna jet off and explore the world. Admire the northern lights while munching on a bar of chocolate. Well, that's not the main point. It is about having a dream, believing in it and going for it. That is what life should be about.

Sad to be in the system. Shall and will break out one day and breathe in the beauty of this world.

Kcmck

2010-06-02T11:55:00.002+08:00

I had the most unexpected conversation with the Senior Director of promotions division in my department.

I've been praying to God to show me what is my purpose, calling, y'know, all of that.

KCMCK = Know Christ, make Christ known.

I've complicated stuff by thinking that a specific job or position the eventual goal.

Nah, there is a difference between purpose and life role.

My purpose is kcmck.

My life role? Don't know yet, walk by faith, acknowledge Him and He shall direct my path.

My next buy

2010-06-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

Gotta start hunting!

Happiness?

2010-05-24T22:41:00.002+08:00

A question that is constantly on my mind. Unknowingly, I've always had the answer inside of me. When I take the time to count the good things in my life and be grateful for all of them, happiness just fills me up.

So this is what it takes to be happy. Gratefulness. Ain't that difficult after all. A simple exercise to do each day - stop and remember the good stuff.

God, family, friends, school, work, being alive...

Humans are wretched creatures. Deep down inside, we are all screwed up. Funny, we like to act as though we are fine, even though we are dying on the inside. Why can't we just admit how cracked we are? Knowing that every one else is cracked too.

On good days when I love every single creature on earth, He is here.

On bad days when I curse every thing in sight, He is still here.

Honestly, my human mind is having trouble comprehending His grace and mercy. How can anyone be like that?

Oh yeah, I forgot, He is God.

When I make my bed in hell, He is here.

Thanks.

Wonder Wander

2010-05-22T22:13:00.002+08:00

Humans are so complex.

I don't know you, I don't even know myself. All the logics and theories I once had in my head all seem ridiculous and not applicable.

Like a baby, learning and exploring life, all over again, except without the false hopes and impressions.

How is it that after 19 years, I still can't figure myself out. I hate that. I hate not being able to figure things, to put a finger on things, to have a rationale, to have solutions for problems.

Let go, Faith, let go. Stop being a control freak.

Blowing off the dust

2010-03-17T13:19:00.002+08:00

The prayer of 'even when no one sees, I will still serve You with all my heart.', God heard it loud and clear.

'Falling at Your feet, as my whole world fades away...'

Even so, I am happy. =)

War Declaration

2009-12-21T21:00:00.002+08:00

I can feel it. I am back to the same stage where I failed the previous time.

It is so clear. The same obstacles are before me.

However, this time it is going to be different. I am ending this year in triumph.

Take that loser.

And you wonder...

2009-12-17T00:12:00.002+08:00

Nothing can ever happen to us without His permission.

Give me the strength that I do not have and I will be able to soar over the storms.

ARGH

2009-12-07T19:58:00.002+08:00

I DON'T CARE EVEN IF CLARENCE IS NOT GONNA GO BATAM I WILL STILL MAKE MY WAY THERE I WILL NOT BURN OUT I WILL FINISH MY REVISION I WILL WRITE THE ARTICLE I WILL EDIT ALL THE PHOTOS. Sheeyit.

Mumbletook

2009-11-29T12:30:00.002+08:00

There's a friend of mine whom inspired me every single time we were out. And last night, she said something that once again, impacted me.

We need to guard our thoughts.

Thoughts precedes words, and words precedes action.

Eventually, whatever I conceive in my head will materialize. This, I realize, is the 4th dimension. So, I really got to keep my thought life in check. Towards any situation, I should eradicate any negative thoughts. Instead, fill the space with God's promises and encouragement.

I am a Caleb.

Super Important Peanuts

2009-11-24T19:34:00.005+08:00

We had our SIP briefing today, and I could just feel everyone tensing up. It felt like O'Levels, we fretting over the choice of our tertiary education, except this time, we are fretting about our internship.

Honestly, I wish with all my heart that I can go Mediacorp TV for my internship, but if it so happens that I don't get that, I've made a decision to be positive about it. In whichever company I am placed in, I will perform to the best of my abilities!

God has my future in His hands and He knows what is best for me. So if I don't get to go Mediacorp, it just means that it's not the season for me/not the best for me/I'm not ready.Whatever the reason may be, I don't need to know, God makes all things perfect in His time. I do not know where am I gonna go for my internship, I'm trusting in Him, His faithfulness towards me, knowing that He has nothing but the best in store for me.

I am not going to be worried about it.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

-Philippians 4:6

We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.

- Romans 8:28

God said it, that settles it.

Blue, Green, and Pink

2009-11-23T19:38:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I jogged to East Coast Park. It was a good run. I hadn't been jogging because of all my school assignments. Felt really good after jogging.

As for today, it was first time working in the office. It was a pleasant surprise to know I have my own desk. HAHA. The office is printed in avocado green, so it's a really nice enviroment to work in. I saw the clothes that boss brought back, and there are a couple of pieces that I want to buy! Wish I can go to Bangkok too, but I can't got because of mid-semester tests.

I want to hop on a plane and chart off to somewhere with an awesome scenery. Just sit in the midst of mother nature, and savour every moment of it. No deadlines, commitments, and responsibilities. Just enjoying the feeling of being alive.

Don't look behind you

2009-11-22T02:52:00.002+08:00

Met an old friend today. He caused me to recall the past.

And I realised I am a totally different person 4 years ago. Do I wish I can turn time back?

No. Never. I want to look forward, look to the future. I tend to reflect too much. Reflections can do good, but when in excess, it's nothing but chains binding my feet from going forward.

I want to look forward. Right now this moment, I am not the best I can be, but I know as I walk with God, I am a better person 3 months from now.

Today, Pastor Casey's message was a sword piercing straight into my heart. God's word is only a part of my heart, and not the abundance. I want and need to make His word the core of my heart; when the flood arises, I will be above it.

I'm not gonna live by what I see.

I'm not gonna live by what I feel.

My internship, my future, my life.

"It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man. It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in princes."

- Psalm 118:8-9

THE BATTLE IS NOT OVER!

Mats & Chairs

2009-09-21T03:20:00.003+08:00

I went down to Sinema Old School today to help out for their film festival. Initially, I was rather relunctant to go cos Liwei's not going with me. =( Anyway, I told myself that my word is my bond, so I booted myself out of the house and head down to Old School.

Boy, am I glad that I went down. Yeah, I was kinda friendless at first, then I met this really nice girl from RJC. Smart girl.

I was asked to take photos for the event, once again, it appeared to me that I have no talent in photo-taking. I took photos that will make Kenny Yong cry and chop me into a thousand pieces. Thank God I got through that and I took a dozen of presentable photos.

After the audience was settled in and all, I sat down to watch the screening. Honestly, I wanted to sleep when it started. The movie had no dialogue and no storyline. It was just footages of nature and human civilisation, accompanied with ethereal music. I was dying of boredom when all I was watching for 10minutes was naked tribal people dancing.

Amazingly, I got rather engrossed mid-way, because I kinda got the meaning behind all the footages and stuff. Modern humans behaving like robots, living perverse lives, upsetting the order of nature, that kind of stuff.

The cinematography was AWESOME. Really beautiful. And it had great camera work. Really worth watching (after you survive the first 20 minutes or so).

It was an outdoor screening.

Weiting (RJC girl) and me.

Blah. I am talking gibberish now.

Wind

2009-09-09T01:31:00.003+08:00

A really good song to me, is one that can stir up a person's deepest emotions with its melody and lyrics. I love this song when I first heard it, and after I read the lyrics, i love it even more.

Bass

2009-08-12T23:08:00.002+08:00

Check out this blogspot! =D

www.nailnij.blogspot.com

Pretty stuff that I spotted from this blogshop:

Yep! Go see go see!

Not on the list

2009-08-12T12:18:00.005+08:00

I've seen this scenario repeating umpteen times on television.

Y'know, someone throws a party, she invites 'everyone' in the clique except one. The party-thrower is kinda trying her best to include everyone but she can't possibly invite everyone cos a function room can only hold so many people. The one who isn't invited will act oblivious to all the party talk, and try not to let leak that she isn't invited. Until, a charming dimwit asks her in her face whether is she going. At that moment, the poor one has to brace herself and say," I'm not invited."

For some weird reason, I am always the charming dimwit who asked the are-you-going-to-the-party question. And when the person replies that she isn't invited, I will feel like I'm given a

sacred task to get her invited. Okay, if the person who's not invited is a rotten celery then I wouldn't bother. But if the person is a really nice and deserves to be invited to any party, there I have it - I want her to go to the party too. Although, it's seriously none of my tofu business.

Perhaps, I feel bad for rubbing it into her face. Therefore, I want to make it up to her. But it's not up to me to make any decisions about this!

I know what's best. Keep my trap shut. Like really shut.

So...should I still try to get her invited?

I say that I heck care, that is a lie.

2009-08-07T18:46:00.003+08:00

You know, many times, people tend to say that they don't care about their classmates, course-mates and the cool crowd in class/course (what a childish term, and cool doesn't mean I think they are cool, but I mean they are easily noticeable. Whatever, it hits the point), but actually they do care. I am one of them. I self-declare myself as a chicken. When I do something which earns a look of distain from one of the easily noticeable crowd, I would brush it aside and say I don't care. Honestly, I do give a dime or two about it.

Seriously, I find it hard to believe that there are people who don't give a quack about what others think about them. Fact of the matter, life is all about relationships. Even the seeming insignificant ones matter. Example: I buy chicken rice from an auntie, and she looks as though I just spit on her chickens. First thing that comes to mind: Why does she look so pissed?

1) I don't know her

2) I've never seen her before

Therefore, she looking like a pug shouldn't bother me! But why did a split-second though about surface in my mind? Reason being human relationships does matter.

This leads me to an atrocious thing I did today.

My group was supposed to edit our video today. Liwei and I happily went to the studio, only to find out that we (actually me) had forgotten to book an editing slot.

We desperately needed a suite and not just any other mac, because we had to digitize our tape. Thus, I solved the problem by going on bended knees (kidding) to beg one of my course-mates to allow us to use her editing suite while she goes to use another mac.

About 15min later, I walked out of the editing suite, only to find out that VIDEO EDITING SUITE 5 was not in used. I checked the book. A group had already booked it, but they weren't there.

There is a rule (in the student guide), if you are late for more than 15mins for your editing slot, your slot will be forfeited and will be open for other groups to use.

Were they late?

Yes.

More than 15min?

Yes. Actually about 45min.

Do I have the right to occupy the room since they weren't there?

Yes.

Then why do I feel so bad for what I've done?

About 1 hour, they turned up and peered into VIDEO EDITING SUITE 5.

I swear I wanted to stick my head into the ground if the ground is not made out of concrete and is carpeted.

And another point. That group is made of the easily noticeable people. Yes, I am a loser. My heart can only take so much. I have a dream - not to be noticeable so that I won't be a topic of discussion.

Seems like this dream of mine is evaporating. Unless, they weren't bothered by it because they know that it was their fault that they were late. What are the odds of that happening? I honestly don't know.

See, it is my fault for forgetting to book a suite. Yes, my bad. I will kick myself later.

So, it is my wrong to 'snatch' their editing suite away from them? Maybe, 'snatch' is too harsh a word. It is my wrong to procure their suite???

Crap.

Lena Park

2009-08-05T00:18:00.002+08:00

The very first album i bought is Lena's Park Op4. I heard her song 'In Dreams' from her album's tv commercial. Though I only heard a few seconds of it, I love that song and went to buy the album. It cost $16.90, for a primary 4 student, it cost a lot.

Recently, she performed 'In Dreams' on television, and the clip was uploaded to youtube. She was phenomenal.

In Dreams - Lena Park

You Raised Me Up - Lena Park

She is fantastic.

Powderful

2009-07-15T23:45:00.001+08:00

"is that possible for euu to print the proposal out tmr?"

Gives me a mad urge to reply,"Who's 'euu'?"

Vote vote vote!

2009-07-11T02:54:00.002+08:00

Voting period for MyPledge Competition is now on!
Please support me by voting for my video!
=D
Title: One Race To Run

http://www.mypledge.sg/video.php?v=rCjUSbUGXe0

P.S Please ask your friends to vote too! THANK YOU!

The Road Not Taken

2009-06-27T13:21:00.006+08:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood,
and I-I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

- Robert Frost

How do you use a reflector

2009-06-25T20:56:00.004+08:00

12 pm in the day. Our butts were literally burning. Cheryl says we looked like Elves living under a mushroom. I couldn't stop laughing at her comment. This is what we learnt from school.

More photos up on facebook. YA! Speaking of the photos, I have no idea how is it possible, after all those hours under the sun, Cheryl and Liwei are still fair, whereas I'm officially part of the minority race. !@#$%^&*.

Favors

2009-06-23T21:59:00.004+08:00

I’m making a short film. Just about the only way to make a decent short, without going broke, is to borrow equipment and get your friends to work for free. In exchange, you offer them free food, their name in the credits, a copy of the movie, and the expectation that you will return the favor some day.

- The Anonymous Production Assistant

I can fully empathize with The Anonymous Production Assistant. When I asked my friends to act in the commercial and short film for free, I felt really lousy and useless. Although the commercial is a school project, and not some other project which I brought upon myself (will talk about Mypledge later), I couldn't help but to feel awful that I can't give them anything in exchange for their time and energy.

This awful feeling gets even worse when I was filming for the MyPledge competition. Honestly, filming condition was horrendous. The weather was excruciatingly hot. And because all of us (the crew) are amateurs, we had to try and error a lot with the camera angle, composition, etc. Thus, the poor actors had to wait for us to solve the problems. And thanks to our noob-ness, we forgot important props, messed up our time codes, had to redo shots, and committed many many more blunders! All of those led to delay in the filming, and a late wrap up.

The unlucky casts had to bear with us. One of them missed his church service. Another quarrelled with his girlfriend because he's late in meeting her.

As if it wasn't bad enough, we had numerous locations but no transport. We either took a cab or walked. Imagine walking in the CDB under the hot sun, or being fried to death while waiting for a cab. The casts and the crews went through all of those agony.

Speaking of the crews, my heart dips even lower. I was the one who wanted to join the competition, and I roped them in. They forked out their time, money, and energy, and had to bear with my temper.

I wish, and I wish that I am ultra rich so I can pay them all for their hard work. Yeah, I wish. I wish the Walt Disney crap can happen to me. A Fairy Godmother coming to me and granting my wishes. The purple genie in the bottle giving me 3 wishes. Trying to sleep and find myself unable to because of a pea under my mattress - oh I'm a princess! (means having lots of money).

Well, similar to what The Anonymous Production Assistant said, what I can give to them is an expectation of returning the favor back to them.

Filming days!

2009-06-22T14:06:00.007+08:00

The last 3 days were super hectic. Standing under the glaring sun. Lack of water and food. Now, my body's malfunctioning. Gotta start resting more and eating healthier food, to get my body back on track.

The Audio Production editing suite. Here's where I edit sound files and create sessions.

Cam-whoring because I had 15min extra.

More camwhoring.

I wonder if the technician saw me cam-whoring cos there are cctvs in the suites.

Liwei and her friend.

Her stressed out face. She had to chiong 2 assignments in only 3 hours.

In Kimberly's mum's car, going to Pasir Ris Park for filming. Her 7 seater is like the transformer. I want one too. (PSA Filming)

Resting between cuts. That's Amelia in yellow.

Kimberly and Amanda.

Amelia taking me taking her.

Rehearsing for one of the scenes.

Applying wounds for Joshua.

Actually, I've got a behind-the-scenes video but it's not working. Will try to figure it out.

Next day! First location: Esplanade Water Front. Zhikai Cameraman, Kevin Cast. (MyPledge Filming)

Liwei again!

Marika acting as a dancer. She is a dancer and she is acting for us.

Fantastic ain't it?

Next day! Haji Lane! We went to many locations such as CBD, Old Supreme Court, Padang, Bencoolen Street, Victoria Theatre. But I've only a few photos. The rest are in Cheryl's DSLR.

Marcus, Liwei's bf, helping us out.

Me camwhoring again while waiting for cast to arrive.

Rainft, one of our cast, taking a nap. He helped us alot like in set-up and all that. =)

In the Maxi-Cab, on our way to TP stadium tp to film last location.

June and Cheryl. June is our cast too. Poor thing. She had 2 scenes where she had to fall down. It wasn't easy.

Me! Again. Hahaha. Rest of the crew and cast in another cab.

It was really tiring but I'm happy. I feel happy when I'm working hard, doing something I like, because I know I am making the most of my time. =)

Must thank God for guiding the productions. The PSA was filmed last week but the tape went crazy, and everything was deleted. I was rather despondent by it. So we had to go back to film it. I'm glad we went back cos it was a lot better! The previous time, the weather was bad so lighting sucked. This time, the weather was better, acting was better, technical stuff was better. In whole, everything was much better! So I'm kinda thankful that the tape screwed up. =X

Mypledge: Started on a crazy note.

1) Forgot to get violin, important prop!!!

2) Cast in 1st scene overslept!!!!

In the end thank God she overslept, and we forgot the violin, because we changed the plans to she dancing. And because she's late, we could get her to bring her dancing shoes and stuff. The final idea was visually much more appealing than our initial idea. =D Thank God!

There were other smaller stuff such as delay in schedule, then we realised that the sunlight at the later time is much better than the sunlight at the time we planned. Also, our cast were really cooperative. We are a bunch of amateurs, low production budget. We can't pay them for acting. Even so, they all came down to act for free, and also doubled up as production crews! I felt super touched when Marika was sheltering me with an umbrella. She didn't have to do it! =) So touched!

Thank God for his favor and grace. =) Hoookie, filming's over but editing's just begun! Gotta chiong chiong chiong!

Twirl

2009-06-18T20:25:00.002+08:00

Heh heh heh. I ate Ruby's chocolate bar. She's gonna be sooo mad. But its not my fault, Matthew was holding 2 of it and he shoved 1 to me. Plus I was hungry, and I will never say no to chocolate.

Maybe cos it is forbidden; Twirl has never tasted this good. Teeheehee.

At one shot

2009-06-18T17:34:00.005+08:00

I took quite a some of photos but I didn't have the time to upload them. I shall do it now. =) Haha.

this doesn't look Singapore right? Hahaha. It's actually Punggol.

My single cam group went there for recce.

So nice! Looks like Jeju laaa.

Lip-dub filming. My phone cam is crappy.

Went to Manpuku! Erm, not much variety.

These are all fake! Hahaha! I ate the choco-strawberry one. Yum yum.

Okonomiyaki.

Okay, need to start doing my lit review. =( Ahhhhhh!

Timecode 05:18

2009-06-15T17:36:00.002+08:00

It has been busy busy busy busy! I hadn't rest for 2 weeks! Plus this week, it'll be 3 weeks with no rest! I'm went crazy with all the assignments, the film competitions, loud camp, and work.

I really wanna thank God for strength because seriously, I cannot handle all of it on my own. It is just plain amazing that although I don't have sufficent rest and sleep, but I am still able to work and come with ideas! It is really the work of God. And for the film competition, everytime I feel I'm having a brain block, a good idea will seep into my mind.

Many times, I feel 'oh no! how am I going to get through this week???'. But somehow or another, I got through it. I can do all things through God who strengthens me. =)

oh.

I CAN'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING WE FILMED ON SATURDAY IS GONE!!! STUPID CAMERA. STUPID TAPE.

Nevermind, God is good. God is good. God is good. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Gid is good. I mean, God is good. God is good. Re-filming on Friday will be good.

GOD! I PRAY THAT IT WILL NOT RAIN. THE TAPE AND CAMERA AND TRIPOD WILL NOT SCREW UP ON US. Amen.

Buay Hiao Pai

2009-05-27T10:24:00.002+08:00

I was looking through my photos on facebook, and realised that I'm looking younger. HEEEE. Guess I'm the only one who thinks that way.

I miss the old cg days, now that I'm gone and all. We took really ridiculous photos. Tsk tsk.

I miss you Mr. Tan

2009-05-25T17:53:00.002+08:00

I really miss my secondary 3 & 4 form teacher. Although he has a rather ding-dong mind, often deviating from Macbeth to Armageddon, he was my source of direction.

Even when I didn't see myself as a good student anymore, he still believed in me. Ma and my father are kinda absent, I don't have someone to guide me. Thank god for Mr. Tan, for at the crucial point of my life, he directed me to the right path. And that's why I'm studying in poly now, if not I'll loitering around.

Now I feel really lost. I wish Mr. Tan is around.

Speaking of which, now I miss Mr. Long too. He was a meanie la, but thanks to his military style, I did well for PSLE. I think he's the only person with the right mind to nominate me as a prefect. HAHA. Anyway, I didn't go for the interview, and I am not the goody student material.

Mr Long and Mr Tan, at different points of my life, directed me. My parents have never shown me the 'right' kind of person I should grow up to be, neither have they directed me to the right path of life. They never shared with me their experiences and lessons of life.

Thanks to Mr Long and Mr Tan, I am a better person.

However, now, I am lost. Who can tell me where to go?

Photos from Amelia

2009-05-21T19:27:00.003+08:00

Amelia makes school more bearable. That chong-ster is sick. If you are reading this, get well soon!

Education is Important, bozo.

2009-05-21T00:06:00.006+08:00

School, school, the magical food, the more you eat, the more you toot. Yesh, that did not make any sense. Oh well. I'm in my 4th week of school, and seriously Temasek Polytechnic is hell on earth. No no, nothing to do with the enormous amount of schoolwork, but everything to do with the minions from hell.

The epicentre of hell is the Business School. I think I told a couple of people but there is a pilgrimage you must go through in order to get to class.

First, you got to walk through The Bridge of Awkwardness. This blasted bridge is damn narrow, so you kinda have no choice but to make eye contact with students walking past you. And why does that sucks? Because everyone in TP rates! As long as an eye contact is made, the other person is rating you!!!!! Ahem, of course, I'm rating the person also la. Go with the flow ma. The sucky thing is you can kinda guess the ratings that the person made based on the person's facial expression. Unless you are Fiona Xie, that bridge is perfect for destroying your self-esteem. So, great, feeling super small while walking on that bridge, but that's not all!

THE SACRED PLACE OF SCRUTINY. That is the concourse. As long as you are walking on the concourse, everyone within the radius of 20m can see you! Well, they will not just see you but they will scrutinise you. Duh! The name spells it all! In The Sacred Place of Scrutiny, there is the Judgement Pavilion, commonly known as the Mushroom. How cute right, Mushroom! What a cute and innocent name, sounds like Maplestory. DON'T BE FOOLED. That is The Judgement Pavilion. Anyone who sits there, automatically becomes a Simon Cowell. Your hair to your clothes to your shoes are being judged. It is there where stereotypes are being formed.

Example:

Student sitting at JP (Judgement Pavilion): Ah! See that guy. Spiky hair and NUM clothes, must be dragonboater. His bod is good but face cannot make it la.

Student 2: No! Look at that girl. She is a freak. Look at her wannabe jap rock clothes. I bet she has no friends.

I, myself, was a victim of the panel of judges at JP. Once, I was fiddling with my stockings when it tore. A big hole on my thigh. I tell you, when I was walking on TSPS (The Sacred Place of Scrutiny), a bunch of girls sitting at JP, started pointing at me and whispering bitchy-ly to one another. "Look at her stockings," said bitchy girl 1 who then threw me a slutty look. GRRRRR.

Okay, so you survived the Bridge, JP, and TSPS, that's a formidable feat. But life gets even better if you are a business school student, because you will then walk into the Epicentre of Hell. Woohoo. Business School is where the mean girls & guys resides. 70% of people there possesses the spirit of Regina from Mean Girls. If you watched that movie, you will know what joy it must be to have hundreds of Reginas walking around.

Of course you can't have same levelled Reginas around. There are Queen Reginas and they come from CMM (Mass Comm). And that is my course. Whoop-pee-dooo!

I love school la.

%$#^%$&^%*%^&!@#$#.

Six Feet Beneath

2009-05-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

So suffocated. By everything around me. I wish it can all come to an end. I feel like I can't breathe.

The Concert

2009-03-31T09:53:00.005+08:00

Funny incident in the concert:

I've been a JJ fan ever since his first debut, so I was SUPER EXCITED to see him live. I kept screaming, waving the lightsticks, singing along to practically every song. In short, I was embarrassing la. The lady sitting beside me was motionless, she just sat through everything. I thinking she was trying her best not to glare at me.

Anyway, that was this part where JJ asked who are his babies, and he asked his babies to scream. Of course, the fangirls went wild. But I just sat there quite stiftly and didn't scream. Then, the lady beside me, turned and looked at me with an incredulous look, like,"Why didn't you scream? I'm surprised."

You see right, I admire and appreciate his talent and hardwork. That's why I screamed and all that crap. But I am not a fangirl fangirl. I don't get excited when my idol refers to his fans as girlfriends. In fact, I get quite annoyed. Because, obviously, he won't get infatuated with any of his fans. And the reason why idols say those stuff is to please the fans, patronise them, and make them happy. So that is why I did not respond to his 'babies screaming' request.

Back to the lady. JJ asked his babies to scream twice. Twice, I just froze there. And twice, the lady turned to look at me. I just kept my face straight and tried to look indifferent. Shortly after that, JJ sang his 'Baby, Baby' song, and I resumed to my screaming-yelling-waving-lightsticks-like-a-lunatic mode.

Cass was damn professional. She was taking photos throughout the entire concert. I'm not complaining cos I get to use her lightsticks. Heeee. I was waving 4 lightsticks in 4 different colours - green, yellow, red, and blue. Bit disappointed with myself, should have bought the lightsaber-looking lightstick that flashes 4 colours.

매우 행복!!!! (very happy!!!!)

2009-03-25T01:15:00.005+08:00

Ah!

I AM GOING TO JJ LIN'S CONCERT AFTER ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* THROWS CONFETTIS*

*CARTWHEELS AROUND THE HOUSE*

*KISS MY HAMSTER*

Thank you Cass for going to the concert with me and paying for my ticket first! =D

Thank you Liyong for your sms! =D

사랑해!

(I love you!)

Old People, New People

2009-03-24T02:58:00.004+08:00

Our keup-our-legs-together game

It all started with Mildred stretching out her legs, and we all also started stacking our legs on her's.

LESLIE! I WILL SCARE YOU ONE DAY!

Early morning stretching exercise. I think it tones the abs cos I could feel the muscles stretching.

I think we are a retarded bunch of people, the later the night is, the more absurb our actions get. Sitting with them at the kopitiam caused me to realise that we have been friends for quite some time already.

Za men lao le.

Teardrops On My Guitar

2009-03-19T23:56:00.004+08:00

Today, I went to teach guitar at Joce's and Pamela's combine cell groups' zoe conference. Pretty funny really because all the students in my class are guys, and the song that I'm teaching them is 'Teardrops On My Guitar'. It was super gay when they were all crooning,"He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar." Actual representation of bromance.

My life is shorten by 2 years because of them. Because when I want to say something, all of them will interrupt me!!!! In a funny not offensive way. Hahaha. The way we converse is totally not teacher-student-ish. Which is an irony because they all call me 'lao shi'. I had fun.

Had fun hanging out with Joce's new cell group. During dinner, Jun Ting and I were having a hello kitty to doraemon scissors-paper-stone game. And I kept winning cos I was Hello Kitty. HAHA!

Ate Hokkaido ice-cream with sock. We were walking through an underpass when a busker stopped us. He asked us whether we were christians (cos of the guitars), and asked us to sing 'God is Good' with him. We sang along and also ended up rapping to the song. "God is good! Check out yo! All the time! C'mon baby!" And when we will going to leave without giving any money, his attitude went a little south. In the end, Alicia (Sock's member) gave $5, and the busker said,"Hallelujah! Amen!" to us. See, realistic christian.

The ultra realistic busker

Tomorrow marks the second and last guitar class. Hope they do well for their performance on Saturday. ^^

"Ariel, listen to me."

2009-03-15T19:29:00.002+08:00

Last night was spend with Cass and Ruby in town. When I was in town, there was a surreal feeling. Ruby felt it too. Cos both of us hadn't been out for almost a month. We just went to work and stayed at home.

Yesterday, we watched Marley and Me at The Cathay. Finally! Finally, I watched a movie at The Cathay. For more than a year, I wanted to check out that cinema, but whenever I was going to get to it, something will crop up. Anyway, speaking of the movie, it was surprising. Haha. We ended up crying a lot. Not little tears here and there, but actual downpour of tears. It was sooooo sad.

We then roamed around Dhoby Gaunt area, and found ourselves in Esplanade where we sat there till 7am. After which, we went to eat Mac at Marina Square. The city area is really beautiful in the early morning. So it was really cool.

When we were sitting at Esplanade, Ruby recalled that about a year ago the 3 of us were also at the Esplanade, talking about our future. And then there we were, in 'the future' that we talked about. Surprise surprise, practically everything that I said I want for 'my future' did not come to pass. I am currently walking on another path that I did not envision myself to walk. The cliche - life is unpredictable.

Sometimes, I wish and I wish that things will go exactly how I want it to be. But actually, it's the surprises in life that makes it exciting and satisfying. I do not know what tomorrow will bring, but I will take life as it comes. Take its pains, its pleasures.

No drama

2009-03-12T06:59:00.002+08:00

I think my life now is as calm as a little stream. The only commitment I have right now is my work. So all day long, I think about working more to earn more money. As I was talking to Ruby yesterday, I realised only two things matter to me now.

1) Earn money
2) Eat good food

Yep. I wake thinking what should I eat today. What will taste good. Or I end up thinking how many hours have I worked. Life's a little boring and mundane, but at least I feel happy and safe. Of course, the calmness of my present lifestyle is a little getting on my nerves now because I love having 'actions' in my life. I can predict what I'm gonna do tomorrow and what's gonna happen, and most of the time I am right.

Happiness is now. I try to find happiness in the little things around me. Now, the 3 things that makes me happy are:

1) Money
2) Food
3) SS501

Yesh yesh. I am that uncool a person.

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!

2009-03-05T11:43:00.002+08:00

I died. Happily.

I apologise for doing this fandom thing even though I'm 18. Teehee.

The person on the other line is a human too

2009-03-04T18:01:00.003+08:00

I am flabbergasted by the way some treat others. Especially when I work, I witness many ridiculous attitudes of people. Perhaps, it would be nice of them to realise that the person picking up your call is also a human. A human with feelings, a human with a social life, a human with family, a human with dreams and aspirations. No no, that is too much for their pathetic little hearts to relate.

It's terrible having to work. You are trampled by customers, crushed by your shift leaders. They don't talk to you as a human. I can feel it each time. They talking down to me. Excuse me, you have no right to talk down or yell at me. I am not a beast. I am working. It is a profession. I am earning money using an honest method.

Which is why it sucks to be poor. Horrible. I hate the fact that I have to work for my own living. If given a chance, I wish I can depend on my parents. But sadly no. It is even worse when it's school term. After a hard day at school, I go to work to get yelled at.

Why wouldn't people just open their eyes to see that the person serving you is just the same as you? Most Singaporeans tend to despise those who work in service line because they see it as a 'servant job'. Guess what, I think those who are in service line is more admirable because they are willing to put down their pride and 'face' to work. Some will never ever want to work in service line as they think it is embarrassing. However, they are the ones who are embarrassing. They live through life, never stepping into others' shoes, living in their own bubble. That is a selfish way to live.

Just because you have a couple of dollars to order Mcdelivery, doesn't give you the right to throw shit at the operator on the other line. I despise every single one of those meanies.

Nehnehnehneh! (Trying to make horse sounds)

2009-03-04T02:26:00.004+08:00

A vitamin S a day, keeps the doctor away.
=D

Recently, I've been crazy about one thing - money. All I think about day in day out is money. I think about how much money I'm gonna earn this month, about how much money I can save, and ways I can earn more money.

我要成为有钱人!!!

I am too old for this but who cares

2009-03-03T04:06:00.002+08:00

EEEEIIIIIYYYYAAAAAAAAAAA!

This is my new obsession.

I am a 宅女.

Credit

2009-02-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

THANKS ALL OF YOU WHO MADE MY BIRTHDAY WEEK POSSIBLE!

Worshipped + Nobody

2009-02-14T19:28:00.012+08:00

Abi! I'm copying you over here by posting all our photos of poly year 1! Heeeee. We are year 2s now. Omg. Tsk tsk.

If I remember correctly, this was taken in GDF. Haha!

Graphic Design Fundamentals.

Project meeting for media & society.

Random sit-in-business-school shots.

Favourite place in school - Cheers!

At Abi's birthday.

XOXO (crappy) party

Speaker's Forum.

Photography group project cum holiday in school.

The day where we realised that Marika is more fun when she's drunk.

Photography tutorial

The Corpse Bride.

I won't miss school. And I won't miss Abi, Kat, or Marika cos we still be hanging out. RIGHT PEEPS? *Points a knife* Heeee. Can't wait for the bbq!

Iceberg Lettuce

2009-02-13T17:58:00.006+08:00

Kat: Faith! You never head of iceberg lettuce!?

As you spend more time with your friends, you'll bound to learn something new from them. And yesterday, I learned that the yummy lettuce has a name - iceberg. Thanks Kat! Yep, thanks for the sleepover. And feeding the always-hungry me.

Kat: Eat the cucumbers, Faith! They're nice!

让我

2009-02-11T03:08:00.006+08:00

你爱是我苏醒
重新来过
深切渴望能活在你手中
生命跟随你跳动
梦想因你而启动
所有一切交给你
毫无保留

让我为你而活
让我为你而站立
永不放弃想你爱我
让我为你前进
我气息是你赎回
如今单单属于你
活出你旨意的生命
改变世界为你转动

转动的梦想
实现着希望
我已看见永恒的光芒
光芒在我心上
在世界绽放
让我为你照亮

Learning new vocabs

2009-02-08T18:38:00.003+08:00

Egregious:
- extraordinary in a bad way, conspicuously bad
eg. You are an egregious liar.

Immutable:
- unchangeable, not susceptible to changes, permanent
eg. The rising and setting of the sun is an immutable cycle.

Pernicious:
- Causing insidious harm or ruin, deadly, evil, malicious
eg. Smoking is pernicious to his health.

Dildo:
- Artificial penis
eg. -nil-

Homophobic:
- Unreasoning fear of or antipathy toward homosexuals and homosexuality
eg. My friend is homophobic, saying that he dislikes gays is an understatement.

Metonymy:
- A figure of speech that consists of the use of the name of one object or concept for that of another to which it is related
eg. "A man has a warm heart" (Metonymy of likening the "warm heart" to warm affections)

After graduation. Shit.

2009-02-08T05:03:00.003+08:00

Okay. I am only a freshman, but I'm already freaking out about my post-graduation life! This is definitely not healthy - stressing at 5am in the morning.

The last time I checked I am underachieving. Others get really mad when they don't get an A for assignments. Me, on the other hand, smiles contentedly at my B. "What's wrong with a healthy B?" I thought to myself. Apparently, that kind of perceiving is wrong. That kind of reasoning will get me nowhere!

I skip lectures. Complete my assignments 1 day before the deadline. Don't turn up for some tutorials. Not punctual for classes and group meetings.

I am a million miles away from being a good student. Oh ya, I don't attend some council meetings too. Damn. So what's the big hoo-ha about being a loser-ish student? My future. My cute and lovable future. What I want to see in my future can be summed up in one word: Mediacorp.

To get an internship in Mediacorp, you need to have good results and an active CCA records. Let's analyse:

- My grades comprise of mostly Bs & Cs, a few A, and a gawddam D. Is that counted as good results?

- I did not fulfill my council duties for Open House. And I missed the latest council meeting.

So do I meet Mediacorp's requirements? A big fat ugly no. I would love to start as a production assistant when I graduate, and then work my ass up. But how do I even get my thrashy ass into the industry in the first place?!!

I DON"T KNOW LA. I'm going to bed.

Now I'm thinking whether am I in the right course? Great. Just great.

Is it normal

2009-02-07T02:37:00.000+08:00

to feel oddly depressed when facebook-ing?

Beautiful Disaster

2009-02-05T04:36:00.006+08:00

She loves her mama's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she find someone to need her

She swears that there's no difference

Between the lies and compliments

It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees
Make her cry

She would change everything, everthing, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys want they want
Trying to act so nonchalant

Afraid to see that she's lost her direction

She never stays the same for long
Assuming she'll get it wrong

Perfect only in her imperfection

She's just the way she is

But no one told her that's okay

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She said so

2009-02-02T12:28:00.006+08:00

Life doesn't turn out the way you want it to be. For example, I was all prepped to go to school today. I did my assignments, and even thought of what I was going to wear. My alarm clock rang at 9am. I pressed 'snoose'. Few hours later. Here I am, sitting in front my lappy, at home. My body totally didn't listen to me! I said,"WAKE UP AND GO FOR CLASS!"

"Snores, snores, snores," replied my body.

What's worse it that I hadn't been feeling well over the last 2 days. So I guess I'll hop over to the doctor to get some pills, then hop over to the bank to replace my atm which is falling apart. Along the way, I shall hop over to Watson's to buy cotton puffs, and maybe I shall get a haircut. Who knows.

This is not a fantastic start to my strenuous week. I will survive this week. I will have faith. Ha. Ha.

Picture from http://www.flickr.com/photos/typefour/2312350503/in/set-72157604606219176/

That's all

2009-01-31T03:44:00.003+08:00

The only thing I care about in Gossip Girl is the relationship between Chuck and Blair (Chair, hahaha).

And the awesome clothes in the show.

Which leads me to the fact that I need to buy new clothes. I had the money to buy them because I've just gotten my first ever salary from the ridiculously-I'm-loving-it job, but I blew more than half of it on my braces. I'm back to being pauper until the end of February.

It's gonna be another harsh month. What's new.

A song she used to sing him

2009-01-29T01:00:00.002+08:00

Sleep my little babby-oh
Sleep until you waken
When you wake you'll see the world
If I'm not mistaken . . .

Kiss a lover
Dance a measure
Find your name
And buried treasure . . .

Face your life
Its pain, its pleasure
Leave no path untaken

- Mistress Owens, The Graveyard Book

Mr. Half-a-brain

2009-01-27T02:12:00.005+08:00

A church person: How come I hardly see you around already ah?
Me: Cos I stopped attending church.

If a cell group member hasn't turn up for weeks, that means the person has left. You don't ask a person who obviously left, "How come I hardly see you ah?" I left. OKAY.

Your stupidity is beyond me.

And Mr Genius still had the sense to say,"I've been going church for the past few weeks already, but I didn't see you." COS I LEFT. YOU ALLTHEFOULWORDSINTHEWORLD. That. Is. Why. You. Haven't. Been. Seeing. Me.

I left so as to not be infected with your stupidity. I wonder are you just tactless or plain stupid or both.

Happy? You smelly private part.

Victory

2009-01-24T16:41:00.003+08:00

Many people have cold wars with their mums. I just had one with ma, and I won. Whee!

The strategy to win: Don't talk nor look at her. Keep yourself happy by bathing with the water she'll be paying for, wearing the clothes that she'll be washing, and eating the food that she bought.

=D

This is a sure way to win.

But if you were the one at wrong, then you should apologise to her. If not, have fun!

Point and Goal.

2009-01-23T01:23:00.001+08:00

Meredith: What's the point? The world is a horrible place. Young people die of diseases. Absolutely no sense to try to be happy in a world that's a horrible place.

Dr. Wyatt: Yes. Horrible things do happen....happiness in the face of all of that? That's not the goal. Feeling horrible and knowing that you are not gonna die from those feelings, that's the point.

I shouldn't be here right now

2009-01-19T10:56:00.002+08:00

I should be in Journalism class, but I just woke up. I remember. I did set my blasted alarm. Why didn't I wake up?! Oh ya, I pressed 'snoose'. I can't rush to school in time, so I quickly checked my attendance to see how many 'leaves' I can take.

*Rubs eyes*
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How come my attendance is 100%?

Yippeee Yipppeee Yay Yay! Which means that I am safe to take leave today! I have to admit this: Even though I am a slimy toerag, God, you are still nice in the unexpected ways. What an interesting way to start my day. It's the little things in life that makes a person happy.

Crab, I am starving.

Ah! There's bread! YESSH!

Oh well, since I'm blogging, might as well try to get it to be a long entry. Personally, I dislike short blog entries. Yesh I know, *points finger to myself* I blogged short entries too. I don't like everything about myself either. My reason for not liking short entries is as follows in chronological order:

1) Damn excited to see there's a new post on this person's page.
2) Jabs the scroll eagerly.
3) Eyes brighten in anticipation.
4) KNN.
5) Only sees 1 picture and 4 lines.

And the worst, the 4 lines is some abstract thing that I don't understand.

I love to read comprehensible long blog entries. And I look forward to new entries like how Garfield looks forward to food everyday. Imagine my disappointment that the new entry is only 4 lines. It totally crashes me. Causing me to be unrepairable. That is why I am a twisted person. Hahahahaha!

Don't get the humour? I tell you.

Yesterday, when I was working, I asked one customer whether she wants to change her fries from normal fries to twister fries. Then, she asked her boyfriend/husband/fiance,"Dear, you wanted twisted fries or not?"

Hahahahahahaha! That means to say that the fries are twisted. They are perverse, warped, and sick.

I can just imagine the Mcdelivery rider looking really jumpy as he passed the fries to this couple. He quickly scrambled away after receiving the payment. The couple were puzzled by his strange behaviour. They opened the paperbag containing the fries, and all of a sudden, the fries burst upward and suspend in midair!

The fries cackled and attacked the couple by stuffing themselves up their nostrils!!!

And that's the story of THE TWISTED FRIES.

The above is not the only incident. It is mind-boggling that soooooooo many Singaporeans pronounce Filet-O-Fish as FISH-O-FILET. The mispronunciation gets on my thread-thin nerves. Initially, it was funny hearing customers mispronouncing the words. But after a few hours of work, it strains my fragile leetle soul.

Oh! Oh! There's one dude that said,"Okay, thank you, goodbye, SEE YOU!" Like how is he gonna see me. Buahahahaha!

Okay, enough of these Mcdelivery customers rants. Gotta get ready to head down to school for group meeting. Bah.

What I want for birthday

2009-01-17T19:34:00.003+08:00

1) $108 Ticket to Lin Jun Jie's Concert

(You can gimme an hong pao, and write "To fulfill your desire to see Lin Jun Jie" on it.)

2) The Body Shop Gift Vouchers
(The more the merrier!)

That's all! Save your brain cells thinking what to get for me. HEEEEEEEEE!

P.S This list is in order of priority. So the top one is the most important. =D I love you la.

For what is right

2009-01-16T21:36:00.009+08:00

"...a soul is like a deep longing in you

that you can never fill up

but you try.

That is why there are stirring poems

and brave heroes who die

for what is right."

- In The Time of The Butterflies by Julia Alvares

Dancebitch!

2009-01-15T01:23:00.009+08:00

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

My sign is vital, my hands are cold.

And I'm on my knees

Looking for the answer.

I am such a cheena-idol-fan-girl

2009-01-14T02:35:00.007+08:00

He is coming!!! Yesh, I am still very much in love with his music. Mind you, I mention his music, not him. Okay fine, I get a little fainty about him. Anyway, the point is that he is coming this March! And I really want to go to his concert so badly that I think I'm getting a stomachache. Hard not too right, cos I've been pretty crazy bout him since primary 6 - secondary 1 period.

I doubt that I will be getting the S$148 ticket cos it seems damn ass for me to spending so much. Guess I will just settle for the S$108 ticket which is still a lot but I ain't gonna go to his concert to stare at the back of other people's heads.

Soooo, I got to cut down on my spending, and contribute my money to the gawddamn-it-I-need-to-see-JJ-so-badly fund.

Maggie mee is gonna be my berrie merrie best friend, I tell you.

Light and Sounds

2009-01-11T17:43:00.007+08:00

Last night we headed down to Phuture for the 2nd part of Leslie's birthday. And to my amazement, I actually kinda like trance music. Hahaha. Phuture got boring and we headed to Zouk. Hehehe, I think shuffling is actually quite cool. Not the weird jerky kind of shuffling, but the rather fluid, smooth kind of shuffling. So, I decided that I will attempt to learn how to shuffle. =D

Where is my pot of gold?

The fierce cai-quan war between Tiff and Les.

The birthday boy.

Snoopy, r u drunk already?

This is how guys party.

And this is how girls party.

Shagged.

Worship me, you ass.

It was a relatively fun night, but I'm really bored of partying now. I think I just wanna spend my time at home and watch videos about shuffling on youtube.

Guess I'll be having lots of free time during the chinese new year period unless I'm working, cos I won't be doing any visitations this year. My uncle just passed away this morning due to stomach cancer. This is the second time I won't celebrating new year because of a passing. The previous time was the passing of my grandma. Ruby and I ended up watching a movie on cny. There's noooooo one at the cinema, it's the best time to watch a movie. I assume I will be doing the same this year again.

Sometimes I think I'm cold-blooded, because I don't really feel any sadness about his passing. I think it is due to the fact that I barely know him. I barely know my biological relatives, I'm much closer to my foster relatives.

"Blood is thicker than water" does not apply in this context.

I will pitch your nose when you snore

2009-01-09T02:18:00.006+08:00

My week is almost over. All I can remember from this week is the dreadful feeling of knowing that I have assignments, then the procrastination, and then harsh realisation that I can't procastinate anymore, and then the quick scramble to do my work. The result - lack of sleep. That sucks. Because I love to sleep. Serious. I only feel satisfied when I have 10 hours of sleep. Yesh, that is the holy reason why I miss a couple of tutorials and lectures. Hehehe.

Anyway, I am finally done with some of the necessary work! What I have left is a couple of oral presentations, group projects, and one effing photography assignment. Which is actually a lot. Grrrr. I will survive through this mountain of paperwork, and emerge barely alive!!! Yesh, that is my plan. Barely alive to celebrate my birthday. Niahahaha. Oh ya, today's Leslie's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LESLIE! YOU ARE 21!!!

His birthday party was kinda cute. There was awesome food. And that's all you need to make a party work. The toilet bowl can burst and cause water to flood the house but as long as the food is good, everybody will enjoy themselves. I really love his cool birthday banner. It was damn tacky like some 5 years old kid's birthday banner, but it's still muthaguking cute. It was fun seeing a usually cool-as-cucumber Leslie standing sheepishly in front of his balloon patterned birthday banner.

Matthew woke up at 11pm so I don't think he will be able to sleep tonight. Guess it will be my bro and me through the night again.

No turning back

2009-01-04T18:15:00.003+08:00

It is wrong to fall down?
Who wants to fall and lose what they had?
When everything is too heavy, you just can't help it and your knees just give way.
You stretched out your hand, but no one held it.
It is your fault that you fell?
The righteous just keep running while the weak is left behind.
Who will help the weak?
No one.
The weak will just have to get up by herself.

Sometimes, no, most of the time

2009-01-03T19:08:00.002+08:00

I am an ass. I seriously am.

Unwilling to be hurt, I throw friends away before they can throw me away.

Some complied, and left me.

Some stayed, and did not leave me.

Thanks you all for not leaving me though I am an ass with an extra big hole. Because you did not leave me, I won't be leaving. I'll stick to you like a leech.

Muahahaha.

Kua Nian

2008-12-31T15:57:00.008+08:00

RAAAWWWWRRRR! HAPPIE CHEEENAA NEW YEEAR!

This Christmas-New Year-ish period is one of the worst period of my life. I counted down to Christmas in my workplace, ranting,"Welcome to Mcdelivery, can I have your muthafuking contact number?" And today I will be doing the same, counting down to the New year in the workplace. It is alright, I consoled myself, because at the end of next month, I'll be darn darn rich!!! *Throws money into the air and dives into a large pile of money*

Soooooo yesh! Salary + ang pao money! Here I come! I got into the Cheena New Year mode when I went to Chinatown a couple of days ago for my photography assignment. See see, damn pathetic, I only go out for the sake of schoolwork. See see, my world revolves all around work!!

Snoopy's favourite shop.

I was looking at the word 'MONEY'. Muuuaaacccks! I love money!

This uncle can seriously sing.

Damn nice to drink!!!

After taking all these photos, we head down to Vivocity to a leetle bit of shopping. And after that, I went to Clarke Quay to celebrate dear Abi's birthday at Mama's Carribbean. Honestly, I am absolutely sick of that place, please do not ask me to go there again. Fanks. Kat and I then dump Abi and her friends for Zouk.

Yesp, evil us. But we got our retribution. Kat's sis signed us both in as Velvet members. We both were in the club for less than half an hour when Kat's sis' friend felt unwell, and we had to go back home.

Grrrrr. Grrrrrrr. Grrrrrrrrrrr. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

What goes around seriously comes around. The best bargain I got out of this, is a free car ride home. Oh weellllls.

My friend Abi who was killed by someone called Flaming Lambo.

The 2 birthday girls - Sonia and
Abi.

The 2 girls who ditched their friend and had their just deserves.

So that kinda rounds up my lovely saturday. And how was Christmas for me? I had my revenge by eating up chocolates that I bought for others because of their cold treatment towards me. Not all were cold, but because of the chosen few, I got very pms-y and ate up ALL the chocolates. Revenge is sweet. Literally, sweet.

True Meaning

2008-12-25T20:12:00.002+08:00

Christmas made me realised that you enter this world alone, walk on this world alone, and leave this world alone.

Which is why one shouldn't be too dependent on anybody, because at the end, you are all by yourself.

Merry Christmas.

Nikon, you should stop eating

2008-12-24T14:03:00.002+08:00

It is very worrying. Nikon (my hamster) is getting very very very fat. Just last night, Snoopy and I saw him sitting on his running wheel, with 3 layers of fats on his tummy. Plus, he couldn't squeeze himself under the running wheel anymore too! When he just came to the Huang family, he was just skin and bones, and now he is, zomg, obese. I should start taking him out of his home more often and make him run around. Or perhaps when I get my salary, I should get him the running ball that the hamster used in Bolt.

On a happier note, I don't think he hates me anymore because he has been quite receptive to me. Like whenever I come near to him, he will get up and greet me with a tiny nibble. But I hate him nibbling me so I will give him a good smack on his head. Oh well, it's getting more difficult to rear a hamster cos it seems that all of them have attitude problems.

The pet shop person said that we shouldn't feed him too much sunflower seeds cos Nikon will get really fat. But Nikon does not eat sunflower seeds! He prefers the other grains and stuff. So why is he still getting fat???!!! This is a very puzzling issue. Perhaps someone in the family is feeding him extra food. Uhhmm........

Today you should throw confetti into the air

2008-12-18T21:37:00.008+08:00

because it is MILDRED'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whaaaaaaaaaaaa! Wooooohoooooo! Acccccckkkk! Gaaaaaaaaah! Yippppppppppeeeeeeeeee!

Ahem. Yesh, it is my beloved Mildred Zee Qingxia's birthday. Her 21st birthday! Naahahahaha.

I went to Tiff's house, where Mildred was, to surprise her with a durian cake. She hates durian cake, and I lied to her that that the only cake she's getting. Muahaha. But no laaa, we have the awfully chocolate cake for her!

Special personalized message for her.
Yesh Mildred, no turning back. 22 before you, 21 behind you!

The bottle was darn difficult to open, and the wine taste awful. I really don't like wine.

Anyway, the cork did not burst out towards the Singapore River (that will be very picturesque right?!), it just drop out of the bottle, and landed fleebly on the ground. Oh well.

The red panty is the awesome card we prepared for her. The front of the panty which is the crotch area, Ruby sew Mil's name on it. And on the back of the panty, is our birthday messages!

Lousy blur photo. The kind ang moh lady was helping to take the photo, but her blasted son keeps jumping on her EVERYTIME SHE CLICKS THE BUTTON. Annoying brat. So that leaves us with a blur photo. Tssssk.

Yep, she loves the panty. She can wear it till she's 80. =D

Btw, Ruby suffered humiliation when she went to buy the panty. Sniff, Ruby will never be the same again.

She looks kinda pissed off by the caption on the cake hur.

At Mama's Carribbean Bar, (Thanks for the intro, Marika) where Cass' crazy kissing side begins to unfold.

Back at the bridge, this is the birthday girl's eye view.

The lovely picnic-ish setting but kinda look like an altar, ain't it?

ATTACK THE BLOODY CAKE. Heh, not really cos in the end we couldn't finish the cake, and ended up stuffing it down our throat.

At Rebel, supposedly old MOS, I think. Correct me if I'm wrong. Well, the club's okay. The dance floor alright. Just that the deejay loves anti-climax situations. You see ah, everytime when everybody's really working it, he'll hit on this pathetic no-beat interlude, and then everybody goes "Ehhhhhhhhhhhh!"

We love to partey partey partey! And they love the stupid 'this is why I'm hot hot' song. I swear I hate that gawddamnfriggin song. Seriously, when the song was on, 4 of them started synchronised dancing, shaking their bums menacingly towards me. Very disturbing, I tell you.

"I got it from my mama!"

Ooops. Back at Mama's. Sorry ah, but I'm a bit lazy to organise the photos chronologically.

Sooooooooooooooo HAPPY BIRTHDAY MILDRED! I LOVE YOU LOTS!

Ahem ahem, my birthday's coming guys. Wahahahaha. =D

Happiness

2008-12-13T19:07:00.003+08:00

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin—Real Life. But there was always some obstacles in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life." - Alfred D'Souza

I always convince myself that life will get better after I'm done with school, after I've gotten a job, after I've earned lots of money. It seems to me that right now, in this moment, my life has not started. I am not living right now, I am waiting for my life to start.

But life has already started. There is no point waiting for a phrase of my life to be over or an obstacle to be conquered. It doesn't mean that I have to wait for this phrase to be over then my life will start.

No, I need to start appreciating now. Now. I need to stop waiting until school holidays, until weekends, until school is over, until I get a job, until I buy my own house, until I start a family, until I retire. There will come a point where "wait until ........" will cease to exist.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

"Better time to be happy than right now."

I don't have to wait for happiness to come, I can have happiness now. I will treasure now.

Homemade Cheesecake

2008-12-12T00:25:00.003+08:00

Thank you Diana!

She was soooo nice. Even though she has a 6am flight to Hong Kong tomorrow, she still came all the way to my house at 11.30pm to pass me her homemade cheesecake. And the cheesecake is fantastic. Yum yum!

I feel very blessed with the relationships in my life. =D

Because I need to shop

2008-12-11T00:06:00.002+08:00

It's crazy sitting in front of the laptop, watching runway shows on style.com, drooling over gorgeous dresses and suits that are currently unaffordable, and breaking down the runway styles into everyday dressing ideas. Finally, the whole thinking process caused me to have a huge urge to spend my remaining allowance in Topshop.

Rational thinking tells me not to head down to Topshop, don't even go anywhere near it! But my inner soul tells me to listen to my heart and buy buy buy! I hate rational thinking.

Hooookay, if I spend all my money, that means I can't go out on Friday, and I am financially unable to celebrate Mildred's birthday! Shitty. It's time to use the old stand-by: Polyvore. Polyvore helps me curb my urge.

All you need are shoes by paperbell

The reason why I need to go overseas is so that I can be surrounded by tall peeps, and thus allowing me to wear high high heels. If I wear heels in S'pore, I won't be able to see my friends. Okay, enough blahhing, time to go back and think about studying.

My brain is just an inch away from blowing up

2008-12-10T00:39:00.004+08:00

Yoooodles! Yooooodles! Today was just a crazy day, eating waffles at gelare (cos it's tuesday peeps!), chomping down pizza hut, and drinking lots of starbucks! And all of those mouth exercises were done in the name of MUGGING. Yep, I finally mugged. I mugged sooooo hard I thought my head was gonna blow. Seriously, each time I try inserting new information into my head, the brain will start having some techno beat rhythm inside of it. It's really creepy studying for journalism, because each time I assume that I'm done studying, I realised that I missed out something! AAAAHHHHHH!

Soooo why am I here instead of mugging? Cos I need to muthagukingly de-stress! I swear, my head is pounding. Anyways, today was also a day of social fellowship! Why?

1) Met Abi at Starbucks (No surprise actually. It's her 2nd home.)
2) Met Amelia from my Public Speaking at Gelare
3) Met Lizzie (Kat's friend whom I just got to know)
4) Met Eunice, my dear classmate
5) Met Joshua, my dear coursemate
6) Met Shida, my dear secondary school cab mate
7) Met Zai, dear secondary school mate

Isn't that amazing meeting 7 people at the same place? Okay, maybe it's just amazing for me. But it just proves one point: Siglap Starbucks is the 'it' place. EVERYBODY goes there. It is where the entire world is connected. Yep, at the homely little Starbucks off Jalan Jamal.

Attempted mugging at Gelare. Screwed.

Hi Snoopy.

Snoopy is camera shy today.

"Don't You Dare!"

Studying makes me lose control.

Memo to self: Please wear decently when I go to Siglap Starbucks.

Ho ho ho ho! It's less than 12 hours to the test, and I'm gabbling nonsense here. *Smacks myself* I. Need. To. Buzz. Off. To. Mug. Some. More. Friday. Is. Coming. Yay!

I hope I am not doomed

2008-12-07T16:33:00.002+08:00

I won't freak out. My journalism test is in less that 3 days time, but I hadn't gotten all the notes for it! AHHHH! *Pulls hair* Yes, it is my fault for not turning up for lectures, so me being in such a pathetic state does not deserve anybody's sympathy. BUT I AM FREAKING OUT. Okay, so the plan now is to wait on msn messager for those hardcores who goes for lectures, pounce on them, and grab the notes from them! Muahahahaha! Except none of them is online. =( At least gimme lecture notes 1 - 5. Heh, yesh, I missed ALOT of lectures.

On the other hand, I can't really get myself to concentrate because my mind is on the business idea. Hehehehe. Well, the idea between Marika and I is to sell Abi's old clothes. There is some probs with that, I feel.

1) One day, abi's old clothes will run out.
2) What if abi wants her old clothes?
3) Marika said that we can't do it anytime soon because of school. Quack quack.

However, the idea is still stuck in my head. Cept it has developed into another idea. And that is to start a website where people sell their second-hand, don't-really-wanna-wear, but still awesome clothes. VERY SIMPLE.

You consign your clothes to me, and I'll do all the brain and manual work such as photo-taking, photo-editing, liaising with customers, webby maintainence, advertising, marketing, and those other shitty work, while you my dear friend, just provide the clothes. When the clothes are sold, you get a certain percentage of the profit. However, if the clothes are not sold after 2 months, you get in back in it original condition or if you wanna donate it to me, I wouldn't complain. Hehehe.

See, the great thing for you is that you don't have to lift a finger. Just pass me the clothes that are tucked away in your wardrobe, and I'll sell it for you. You don't have to spend the time doing webby & business shit. You can spend your time on your favourite activites like clubbing ,knitting, cooking, baking, or scuba-diving! Time is money, and I can help you save time while give you the chance to earn MONEY!!! Brilliant isn't it?! *Throws confetti*

I know very few people reads my blog, but if you (one of the few people) have half a thought of selling your clothes through me, or are interested in the above rumblings, please help me do this survey! Wait wait! I have to stress that I operated an online shopping webby before, so I got the muthagugaking experience!!! Yesh yesh, pardon me, go ahead with the survey. =D

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Survey

[Psst! You may choose more than one option, but don’t contradict yourself! =D Thanks.]

1. Do you go online shopping?
a) Yes
b) Nope

2. If yes, where do you shop?
a) SgSellTrade
b) SgMarketplace
c) SgFleaMarket
d) Online Auctions
e) Other blogs/LJs/LJCommunities/Webs (Please Specify:____________________)

3. Have you sold anything online?
a) Yes
b) No (Please go straight to Q6)

4. If yes, what did you sell?
a) Second Hand Clothes
b) Second Hand Items eg. Bags, Accessories (Please Specify:__________________)
c) New Items (Please Specify:___________________________________________)
d) A and B
e) All of the above

5. If yes, through which medium?
a) Personal blog/LJ
b) LJ Communities
c) Online Auctions
d) All of the above
e) Others (Please Specify:____________________________)

6. If there is an online medium for you to sell your second hand, don’t-think-I’ll-be-wearing clothes, just by providing the clothes (don’t have to bother about picture-taking, website, advertising, and those time-eating toss), will you use that medium?
a) Yes
b) No (Please state reason:____________________________________________)

7. Through the medium, you will receive a certain percentage of the profit, what is your ideal percentage? Please bear in mind that you only provide the clothes; photo-editing, photo-taking, modelling, liaising with customers, advertising and marketing, website maintenance, and all the other brainy and time-consuming toss is done by the lovable person in charge of the website.
a) 10%
b) 20%
c) 30%
d) 40%
e) 50% and above

Name:
Age:
Gender:

After you are done, copy and paste your survey results and email me at ziling.faith@gmail.com. I swear I love you!!!

P.S Even if you have ZERO interest, please help me do this survey. Plleeaassseeeee............

Abbey Mount

2008-12-05T00:17:00.002+08:00

1 Snapple Kiwi Strawberry, 1 Polar Sausage Puff, 1 Ice Lemon Tea, and 1 Cup Noodle are enough to kick start our brains, and cause us to churn out an amazing idea. I swear the idea is gawddamnfiggin brilliant!

Abi has a thousand and one clothes. About 800 of them are currently fossilised. And practically all of them comes from fantastic brands such as H&M, TOPSHOP, FOREVER 21!!!! Her clothes are amazing. Anyone who SEEN her knows that she got an awesome sense of style.

So anyway, Magnificent Marika and Fantastic Faith has thought of a brilliant idea. We. Are. Gonna. Help. Abi. Sell. Her. Clothes.

Muthafukingly fantastic ain't it?!!!! HAHAHAHA! Magnificent (Marika) and Fantastic (Faith) have a wicked business sense, or so we think we have. Heh. Sooooooo, Abi shall provide the rags, and we provide the every else! AMAZING YEAH. I can so tell that the business venture is gonna work out.

And the reason why I am blogging it out, so that it will come to pass! Yesh, church theory, that whatever you confess will come to pass thing. Yeshyesh. I am gonna make it work cos I'm am so friggin excited about it! I know that is not a substantial reason to start a business. Sniggers. Business. Sounds so serious. Well, I shall call it a project. Project MagnificentFantasticAbbey. Whoop-Dee-Dooooo!

Watch out for us citizens!

XOXO

2008-11-27T23:43:00.011+08:00

The party at St. James was pretty disappointing. (Yes, I'm complaining again) The music was quite crappy, the dance floor was crappy but at least the company is good.

After ten thousand shots, finally a sharp photo.

I really love this fiery ball.

Cam-whore professionals.

It was dom's birthday. And he's 18 y'know, but he forgot to bring his IC. How smart. Sigh.

So tired. Kat could only crawl.

We left the party early, and wanted to head to Mac, but Mac doesn't open 24h on weekdays! (cept friday) Soooooo hungry, thirsty, cranky.

We then had a good talk. Lots of walls broke. Realised lots of stuff about Jin and Dom. Glad to know them better. Abi was cranky cos she wasn't high, and Kat went off earlier to find her sis.

A crazy fight broke out, and a lian got kicked in her face. D, J, and I were like watching the fight until Abi got really mad and screamed at us to get out of the way. J and I obeyed but D went closer.

Then Abi and Jin yelled at him. Dom says it is in his neighbourhood school blood to 'watch show'. Hahahahaha. Abi was really fierce cos she was so pissed that we stood there like idiots watching the fight. I guess she was worried that we might get involved. Anyway the show came to an end when the security guards came.

So yeah, interesting night. Went home and begged Ruby to cook scramble eggs for me but she wouldn't. I keep begging. She gave up and gave me cup noodles. Noodles was fantastic. Went to bed with a satisfied tummy.